I Think We Have An Emergency.

I think we have an emergency
I think we have an emergency
If you thought I'd breathe then you were wrong
Because I won't stop holding on
So are you listening?
So are you watching me?
If you thought I'd breathe then you were wrong
Because I won't stop holding on
This is an emergency
So are you listening?
And I can't pretend that I don't see this
It's really not your fault
And no one cares to talk about it
To talk about it
Cause' I've seen love die way too many times
When it deserved to be alive
I've seen you cry way too many times
When you deserved to be alive
Alive...
So you give up every chance you get
Just to feel new again
I think we have an emergency
I think we have an emergency
And you do your best to show real love
But you don't know what love is
So are you listening?
So are you watching me?
Well I can't pretend that I don't see this
It's really not your fault
And no one cares to talk about it
To talk about it
Cause' I've seen love die way too many times
When it deserved to be alive
I've seen you cry way too many times
When you deserved to be alive
Alive...
So much pain will not fade away
And no one cares to talk about it
To talk about it
Cause' I've seen love die way too many times
When it deserved to be alive
I've seen you cry way too many times
When you deserved to be alive
Alive...
Alive...

That song is called "Emergency" by Paramore. I've noticed lately that almost every song that i listen to has at least one line that is WAYYYYY too specific to my life, or to a relationship i have with someone, whether it be a friend, someone i want to be more than a friend, whatever. it's really starting to scare me, honestly, but i digress.
this song actually parts of it fit MY life, and parts of it fit someone else's life. this song, when i really started to think about it, sounded exactly like a friend of mine. she has probably told me all of this stuff, but i just didnt really listen, and i still dont. lol.
ok, does it scare anyone that i do most of my thinking while im driving the ten to fifteen minutes home everyday from school? if not, then good. if so, dont worry, i still pay attention to the road and all that jive. but anyway... i sit there in the driver's seat and im just listening to my paramore cd and im just thinking. thinking really hard, might i add. and this song comes on, and i just start absent mindedly singing while im thinking. and it hits me... this song sounds like something my bestest friend has told me over and over and over again. i guess i just needed hayley williams to tell me for me to get it. lol.
the part that starts at "cause ive seen love die..." all the way thru "alive..." the first time, britany has told me something like that SO MANY TIMES. seriously. she's told me that i am apparently too scared to do anything (and i dont disagree with her) so i just give up any and every chance i ever get (which i do not disagree with). i mean, she HAS seen me cry wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy too many times, but that doesnt really stop me. and i mean, britany isnt the only person who's told me stuff like this. all of my best friends have at some point and time. ive had people tell me that i dont know what real love is because i havent experienced it. ive had people tell me that im just a bloody coward (which i really dont disagree with). but i can only think of two or three people who would say "and i cant pretend that i dont see this." really. it's sad, really.
i am a girl of many friends, but of those many friends, i can count the ones that are really there for me on one hand. there are many who would say that they are really there for me, but they just say it. their words are empty, and i know that better than they do. but that is a topic for another day.

=] By the way, this is my first blog of 2009. Happy New Year, ladies and gentlemen!